Friday, January 20, 2012

Happy Birthday Kathryn Grace!!!!

Dear Kathryn,

 Today you are 6 years old. 6!!! How is that possible? Where did time go? It just seems like yesterday you were born into my arms, and now you're half way through being a child. I know for sure if I blink you'll be a teenager asking me for the keys to the car.

I remember your birth like it was yesterday. When I found out that you were a girl, I can not tell you how thrilled I was. I yelled out "It's a girl,it's a girl!!! I really have a girl!!"  I brought you up to me and said "aww, look at your fat little face! We are going to have so much fun!!!"  I meant that in a good way, with all the love in the world.  You had my heart the second our eyes met.

I had no idea motherhood could be so easy. Sure, you've had your moments, and you're not perfect, but you are such a good girl.  You are everything and more than I could have ever dreamed of in a daughter.  You are so smart, funny, kind, loving, helpful, and so very special to me.  I couldn't make it through the day without you, you are my right hand. I can always count on you to be there when I need help.  Your little siblings adore you. Thank you so much for helping with them.  They won't ever forget you fixing them breakfast, helping them get dressed, or giving Jemima makeovers, playing ball with Jess.  They are going to remember forever and know they were so lucky to have such a wonderful sister.

You make it count, that is one of the things I love the most about you.  You love everything, with your whole heart. You see something you want, and you go after it with every ounce of your being.  I have learned so much from you.  You prove time and time again that if you believe in yourself, you can truly be or do anything so long as you set your mind to it. I love watching you on stage whether it be in pageants or dance, and even out on the ball field. You bring a smile to so many eyes, and warm everyone's heart.

I love the way you are. You demand respect, don't let people get the better of you, and stick it out when the going gets rough. Don't ever change, sure you will grow up, but always be true to yourself. You are perfect by just being yourself. I know you know this.  One thing, please don't grow up too fast!!!

I know I am not just raising a daughter, I am raising my very best friend.  I can not picture my life without you Kathryn, and I don't want to! God smiled down and gave me the hugest blessing when He gave you to me.  I'll never feel worthy enough to be your Mom, but I am, so I will do my very best to give you the best.  Our family just wouldn't be the same without you.  Your smile, your cheerful mood, your willingness gives us all reason to strive to be better.  I love you so much!

Love Always,

My beautiful little girl.

PS Knock um dead at the pageant today!!!! We are all rooting you and Jemima on!!!

Thursday, January 19, 2012

So Long Facebook!!!

I knew this day would come, just didn't know when. Today is that day, I am finally over it!  I want real friendships, real people, real one on one time, and real support.

For the facebook users that would like to keep in touch, you can catch me on skype (sarah.dawson01) email (, or call me (ask for my number!!)

I am leaving my page up so I can still use my Crazy Cloth page and keep all my pictures and posts, but I will no longer be using that (at least for now).

So long!!!

Monday, January 16, 2012

Heaven is real!

Poor Liam, he's been under the weather lately. At first we thought a stomach bug ran through the family. It turns out it was food poisoning! Liam was the one that ate the most of the chicken (that I insisted tasted BAD, everyone else said it was fine!) at the Chinese Buffet, and he was sickest the longest.  I am happy to report that as of yesterday, he seems 100% normal and I've got my boy back. :)

Yesterday we were sitting on the couch cuddling and I had a conversation with him that I never want to forget.  Here seems like a good place to save it.

"Mom, when I was a baby, I died."  Not sure when Liam found this out, but it's something he's been talking about more and more lately.

"Yes you did Liam, but you came to us and got better!"

"Yes I did!" Then he smiles and says... "I went to Heaven when I died."

This was the first time I ever heard that.

"You did? WOW Liam!! What did you see in Heaven?"

"I saw God!"

At this point, I get the chills!

"What did God do? Did He say anything?"

"Yup! He talked to me!"

"Wow! What did He say?"

"He said, go back to your Mommy, Go back to your Daddy! Then I woke up."

Liam left us 3 times when he first came into this world.

My sweet little baby about an hour after birth

He had to fight for life, beat the odds, and work so hard just to be who he is.

He's got a big story to tell, and I have a feeling it's just getting started!!

There is a plan for Liam's life, bigger than I can imagine! 

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Testing! Testing! 1, 2, 3!!!


Jonah loves the box!

I am in awe that I can get 6 frames for every second!

I will never miss that perfect shot ever again!

Kathryn in her stylish dance outfit.

My handsome first born.

I didn't get any of Liam. He was napping when the batteries were charged, then it was straight to dance.  Then when we got home from dance, he had dinner and it was bed time! Tomorrow I'll some!

Get Ready!!!

Dear Blog,

Ryan just walked in with a brand spanking new Nikon D7000!!!! Be ready for tons and tons of pictures of my beautiful children!!! As soon as this battery charges I am going to be shooting like crazy!!!


Tuesday, January 10, 2012

My little night owl!

Jonah last night at 11:15 pm STORY TIME! Taken with Ryan's phone, these would be so much more adorable with a real camera!

For the past week we've had a little night owl on our hands.  He is such a happy little owl, there really is no room to complain! The only bad thing is, Ryan and I usually like having the nights to ourselves, to catch up on one another's day.  Lately, we've been taking turns playing with Jonah!

I think he likes it because he gets us to himself, it's like he knows he can be an only child if he will only stay awake.

I thought I'd turn some music on in hopes to wear him out.  He just crawled over to my computer, pulled himself up, and had a little dance session... 

11:30 PM Dancing

11:45 PM still going strong!

He stood there and danced for 20 minutes straight! He was really getting brave and letting go to clap his hands and just before midnight he fell over and started to fuss.

12:01 am starting to get sleepy! 

I took him upstairs, kisses his fuzzy soft hair, tucked him in next to me snuggling and nursed him. He was "sleeping like a baby" at 12:15 AM. 

I wonder what tonight will bring!

Monday, January 9, 2012


Kids trying on their formal wear for the cruise.

Has it really been more than 2 months since my last blog post?!  There is good reason for that, I have NO CAMERA!!! :(  On our awesome vacation, I was sitting in the water filming Jemima playing on the beach in Belize and a wave came up out of nowhere right over my head totally soaking me and my camera. The screen went black with in seconds and I couldn't turn it on or off.  I quickly took the battery out and put it in the diaper bag and said my prayers that it would work again once dry.  To make a long story short, it came to life for a week.  Then the motor that controls the lenses died.  It will turn on, but that's about it.  Ryan "thinks" he can fix it, but who knows.  I've reached the stage in my life that I am ready for a better camera, one like the pros use, and I am just short a couple hundred bucks in getting it!  Ryan thinks I'll have it in my hands next week, we can hope, right?

Anyhow, my RAW diet has 100% gone out the window.  I was doing amazing!  I forget when we broke it, but I remember why we did.  We ate cooked and the whole family felt awful for 2 days.  We quickly decided to end the diet because vacation was soon and no one wanted to feel bad while on it!  Now that the trip has come and gone, the Holidays are over, no more huge trips are planned, it is time to get serious... I've just not set it in stone when to start.  My juicer has all it's parts and I'd like to kick off a vegan diet (not 100% raw) with a 48 hour juice fast, you know, to clean myself out.  Like I said, no dates set in stone yet.

Our trip was AMAZING!!! It was just what we needed.  We swam, ate, rested, ate, played, ate, hiked, ate, rested on sunny beaches, ate, and that's pretty much it!  Jonah found a love for watermellon.  He ate watermellon 3 times a day plus other stuff.  He gained a whopping 2 lbs in just 1 week!! Kathryn and I went snorkeling in Belize, I can not tell you how much fun that was!  This little girl is a fish.  I don't know if being born in water had something to do with it, or it's just her. She was out there in over 100 ft of water, right at home!  The waves were huge.  They even made divers and life guards wear a life jacket because it was so rough!  Kathryn was able to breath through a snorkel like she had been doing it all her life.  The awesome people giving the tour insisted that she must have had lessons somewhere.  Nope, that was her first time.  She was face down taking it all in, the huge waves never once bothered her.  It was so amazing.  We swam around an island that was surrounded by the most beautiful coral reef I've ever seen. The tropical fish were so big and beautiful and in a rainbow of colors!  I got to dive down about 30 ft and pick up a sea cucumber for Kathryn to touch, and one of the guides dove down and got a huge conch shell for her to hold. Ryan hung out at the island beach with the other kids playing in the waves.  It was the perfect day.  We also saw the Mayan Ruins in Mexico, laid on a beach in Honduras, and ate ourselves silly on the boat.  We were going to swim with the sting rays in Grand Cayman, but the waves were too rough to get off the ship.  It was a blast!!  I've got some pictures to share, but they are on my laptop.  We also took some underwater shots as well, but we still haven't had those developed.

Driving to Miami wasn't that bad!  We stopped in Macon, GA (day before Thanksgiving) on the first night, Had Thanksgiving lunch at exit 5 in GA, then made it to Orlando by 5, went to Medieval Times for dinner (still can not believe they were opened for Thanksgiving!), swam at the hotel, and the next day Jemima's dream came true and she got to meet Mickey Mouse and the "REAL" Tinker Bell!! She was scared to death of half the rides (in fact, she only enjoyed the teacups, small world, and dumbo!) but she still had a great time and is begging to go again.  It was packed on Black Friday!  I guess the people there didn't get the memo that they were SUPPOSE to be shopping!!!
After Disney World we drove to Cocoa Beach and slept like a rock.  We left Disney at midnight and got to Cocoa Beach early in the morning, then on to watch N.A.S.A launch the rocket, it was so cool! Ate at our use to be favorite spot (it use to be a local secret!!!:(  Now it's over crowded and the food ain't the greatest!) and hit the road again for Miami. I.HATE.MIAMI!!! That is all I will say about that.  We ordered huge pizzas at the hotel there and swam till we were all shriveled up like prunes.
The next day we got up early and got on the ship.  Getting on was interesting.  Guess how many times I was asked "are they all yours??" My word people are rude!  One lady informed everyone LOUDLY in front of my kids "that poor women!!! I wouldn't ever want her life!!!"  Jesse looked at me sadly "mama, they feel sorry for you?"  I nodded my head "but WHY?!?"  I reminded him that people don't know how awesome kids are and live sad lonely lives. (uh, yeah, I was REALLY LOUD)  That shut the her up.  I am so far over being nice to rude people. Ryan was asked if he was a preacher! haha! Ryan! A Preacher!! Yeah, NO!  Interesting though, it took forever, it was HOT, and people were rude.  We were exhausted and tired and seriously wondering if this was all worth it.  It WAS!  People on the ship saw how fun kids could be and people even came up at the end "at first I thought you had lost your minds taking this many kids on a cruise, but you do have a wonderful family and we've enjoyed getting to know you all!"  For those of you wondering, would we do it again?? YES!!! In fact, we are already planning our next one!!!
The drive home was not so much fun. Jonah was so over the car seat by the time we hit GA the rest of the trip was LONG.  I was seriously thinking of throwing myself into oncoming traffic. He was SO. LOUD!  We got home, all was well. :-D

I wasn't home a week and I was flying to TX with Jonah to visit my friend, Jenin!  We had been pen pals for years, I think I was 12 when we first "met."  I was there 4 days and I had a blast.  I really missed my other kids though and don't think I'll leave them all for so long anytime soon, but I had a great time!

Then Hanukkah hit!  I got the best surprise of all, Jacob came in from AZ!  It had nearly been 3 years since I saw him.  That was great!  We also went to Great Wolf Lodge (this time in Sandusky Ohio) for the weekend and just enjoyed Ryan's 4 day weekend.

7 months old!
Jonah is a lucky little man.  On his 6th month on earth he spent it at Disney World, 7 months at Great Wolf Lodge.  The kids insist we need to go somewhere for his 8th month, but I am seriously over traveling for at least a month or so!
I can not believe he's 7 1/2 months!  He is crawling at record speed.  I can not believe how fast he really is.  He can pull up to stand, cruise, let go and stand on his own for a few seconds and tests this to see how long he can go all the time. He feeds himself, drinks from a straw and a sippy cup.  He can clap his hands, do "so big", and over this past weekend he started throwing kisses!  He has 2 teeth with another soon to be through, and he's got a heart stopping grin.  I give him a month and he will be walking, I am not ready for that!!

  We are finally getting things back to normal on the home front!  Today was our first day back to school, back to doing our chores, and back to minding our manors.  It's gone much easier than I thought.  Kathryn is about to turn 6 on us though, and we've got a huge pageant to plan for and her party!  We have nothing planned for the whole month of February, and I'd sure like to keep it that way!